Traveling for work is something I did a handful of times throughout the year. Typically lasting no more than 24 hours but requiring an overnight stay. Today as I sit in my hotel room after my final trip for work it feels funny. I can’t quite put my finger on it, but something in me feels different.
In about 3 weeks I’ll be leaving my full-time job to pursue entrepreneurship. I couldn’t be more excited to take on this next adventure, but there is a definite sadness with this final trip. As I did the 3 hour drive here I started to get flutters in my stomach thinking about how I won’t do this again. I’m trying to put into words how I feel, but it’s truly really difficult to do right now.
I’m leaving a job I overall enjoyed, one that gave me meaning and purpose. Years ago as a new college graduate I knew deep down that I would be back at my alma mater. So to be able to serve the alumni for past 4 years has been not only an honor and a privilege, but a dream come true.
Then when I think about the time I’ll be getting back in my life, I know I’m making the right decision. Even though this change feels so right it doesn’t come without a lot of emotion. I want to lean into this emotion, to feel all the feelings and really enjoy the last few weeks in this position.
When I gave my notice a few weeks it was surreal to think about taking on entrepreneurship. I thought a lot about the future, and what’s coming up next. Now that the end is coming up and the last time for things is happening, I’m reflecting back on the last 4 years. I want to reflect, I want to remember and yes I want to cry. It’s going to be sad walking out the door of my building, and driving off campus for the last time as an employee.
Twelve years ago I drove off campus with tears in my eyes because my time as an undergrad was ending and it was the end of a chapter in my life. Soon I’ll drive off campus with tears in my eyes because another chapter here is ending, and new adventure is beginning.
I know what lies ahead is incredible and I’m so blessed for this opportunity. That doesn’t make this move any easier. For the next few weeks I’m going to really be present in my work. To enjoy the mundane and everyday things, the conversations with co-workers, the lunch breaks, the laughs, the phone calls and the emails.